Seeking And Not Finding

Seeking And Not Finding

julho 19, 2021  

You spend years and years, many sleepless nights, writing, until you have some conviction that anything you're being able to feel and think is really love and wisdom. Then you wonder, "Should I hide or show it? I can express but I can't explain, and that could be a problem". My intuition was right, I was unable to deal with people thinking the easy "truth".

My only options were to keep exploring the hard truth or to surrender to fear and give it all up. Obviously, I've chosen to persist. But I was already exceedingly suffocated by the conviction of fools, and it was only a matter of time until I started to feel and think that, because of God and myself, I was seeking and not finding. I had been blinded by the guilt, which I couldn't see was coming from wicked men's desire of condemnation.

Well, I had to spend one night at the mental hospital, because I had to find another way and at the same time I remembered I couldn't find anything, and no other way I could think of didn't even seem to resonate with the word 'seeking' anyway, so I probably had to find a way to kill myself. Then people heard me saying things like, "My enemies are right, I'm mad, evil, and God hates me".

That was in 2012 and here I am today, having survived feeling like Pat, Eleven and Riggs, all at the same time. To realize, in 2015, that I've had never really stopped finding. Because they said my days are numbered, so that year on June 22 I tried to count them for myself. Ha!

I also didn't know I was trapped in the girl on the moon's countdown...

It's true! Continue Reading

You're In Danger

You're In Danger

julho 16, 2021  

A question for my many "protestant" enemies...

Why did you choose a "religion" started by a man responsible for burning one alive and another guilty of murder of millions in the gas chamber? Couldn't you just choose to be protestant like John the Baptist?

No, because you know that would be hard. Continue Reading

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47

julho 15, 2021  

The penitent thief on the cross had faith and free will. The only reason why he is forgiven is that he was saying in his heart, "If I could go back in time I would have sought God and not the things of the world". Faith has always been there in him but he chose to use it only when all false hope was gone. He couldn't think of getting "rich" or "famous" anymore.

The chances are that most people trying faith someday, won't give up "hope"; they're going to keep misusing free will. Isn't that the reason why they choose "religion"? Because they have more important things to search for than Truth?

Isn't it true what I say? How could you know, anyway... Continue Reading

Rebellious

Rebellious

julho 14, 2021  

Once upon a damn time I'd started to see evil and I knew my "normal" life had been ruined there, and there was nothing I could do about it. Then I believed just to see if I could see some good, and yes, I saw. Once again, I had something I couldn't simply erase from my mind. From that moment on I knew what I could find inside, and that kept me believing, seeking.

Seven years later I saw good again, and the tool I used was the combination of cinema and imagination. This time it was more lastingly intense, giving me the ability to perceive a life I didn't know. And my first experience was not the only motivation, I was sure, being even more sure about that after seeing it getting confirmed along the way.

That's what faith is to me; I'm not afraid of seeing evil when I can only think of seeking to see good. Continue Reading

Resting In "Peace"

Resting In "Peace"

julho 13, 2021  

If there is one thing they ask for is to never have their eyes opened to see the evil that hides in it.

We know the prayer of the happy wicked man. Continue Reading

False Association

False Association

julho 13, 2021  

Do not believe there's something wrong with you because you don't fit in. The condition to fit in worldly society is to be stupid, to think not about how people feel comfortable in lovelessness, to choose one of the faithless paths it offers and to hope for an illusion it calls "future". If you have a sincere quest for answers you have a chance of getting right and fitting out.

They think they're righteous, but they don't think, right?

The world is a damn dangerous place to stay. Continue Reading

No Way To Settle Differences

No Way To Settle Differences

julho 13, 2021  

I can't feed happy fools and they can't feed me back.

Can you take what God takes not? Continue Reading

Trigger The Synchronicity

Trigger The Synchronicity

julho 13, 2021  

One needs to be bold enough to believe what's on his mind until he sees what he had been searching for. When you start making a real difference between right and wrong, and you're unafraid to tell, the wicked's negative feedback won't mean anything since the answer you're looking for is still that one from the Just. When your testimony is true it just happens, and you know He's with you.

Some things can't be helped.

Some people too. Continue Reading

Age Of Reason

Age Of Reason

julho 12, 2021  

The time had come to know what is right. Continue Reading

Tá Com Medo Do Quê?

Tá Com Medo Do Quê?

julho 12, 2021  

"Liga o testemunho, sela a lei" Continue Reading

More

More

julho 10, 2021  

Believe, Thomas.

Let James show you the way to Grace.

Continue Reading

So Fortunate

So Fortunate

julho 10, 2021  

It's just begun and only continues to grow as time goes by.

Yes, we know a place. Continue Reading

Ready To Be Unplugged

Ready To Be Unplugged

julho 10, 2021  

A Universal Music lançou uma canção inédita do Cazuza em que é dito o seguinte:

"Já se vira sozinha na rua
Com coragem e comprimidos"

Cazuza morreu dessa "coragem", né?

É engraçado como nos créditos finais d'Os Agentes do Destino, alguém na Universal teve o "cuidado" de remover da música do Richard Ashcroft os versos em que o nome de Jesus é mencionado:

"Ah Jesus, sweet Jesus can't you hear?
Please don't leave us all alone
Living here with fear"

Provavelmente não queria ofender os fiéis mais fervorosos do mundanismo, dar a entender que a obra comunicava a mensagem do cristianismo. Mas, por outro lado, o fato é que algum escolhido infiltrado na Metacortex escolheu a música para estar lá em primeiro lugar.

Corajoso!

Uma pílula vermelha para ele. Continue Reading

Take Them Out

Take Them Out

julho 09, 2021  

“Behold, I am sending you out as sheep in the midst of wolves, so be wise as serpents and innocent as doves."

There's nothing wrong with teaching dance to six-year-olds. Continue Reading

The Just Beginning

The Just Beginning

julho 08, 2021  

Once you hear and see the things the world of the wicked can't, and you realize you can fly, you won't have a problem with being invisible, being nobody. You won't even notice what they care so much about, what gives them chills. Because you have just found the meaning of Life and left the taste of death behind, knowing the difference. You've tried humility and the law destroyed the attraction. Continue Reading

Se Achando?

Se Achando?

julho 07, 2021  

Was John boasting when he wrote referring to himself as the "disciple whom Jesus loved"? He would have been if he had said, "disciple who loved Jesus". He was conscious that he was nothing but a source of emptiness, that he couldn't love Him first, he couldn't save himself.

Why do those people hate me? Because they love being seen as a source, they love hearing lies like, "Your music has saved me, it's changed my life!". Really? So why are you the ones getting the glory if there is any truth in what you say, what they say? You've got relevant things to speak and still they make you ashamed of Jesus and His true words? Poor Jesus, they've discovered that the only Source is a lie and they don't want to share their "glory" with Him.

The truth is they can't let go of their false selves and pathetic world.

Cheap souls take his offer to make them "special" in it.

Então se acham sem terem buscado Ninguém. Continue Reading

The Source And The Reconnection

The Source And The Reconnection

julho 06, 2021  

"He saith unto him the third time, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me? Peter was grieved because he said unto him the third time, Lovest thou me? And he said unto him, Lord, thou knowest all things; thou knowest that I love thee. Jesus saith unto him, Feed my sheep."

God gives, you take.

You give, God takes not, for He resists the proud. Continue Reading

A Survivor's Advice

A Survivor's Advice

julho 03, 2021  

When people are not seeking to change, you're only trying to get blood from stones.

There is no good to be found in the bad to the bone's place. Continue Reading